Instant Gratification vs. Long-Term Goals

Instant Gratification vs. Long-Term Goals

July 15, 2020 0 By Laura

How do we set our eyes on the prize and continuing seeking and pursuing our goals when they seem so far away?

I’ve been saying for years that I want to write a book. I feel like I have a story to tell, and I feel like I’ve learned a lot and have acquired a good bit of wisdom over the years, and I want to share that with others in the hope of them finding comfort and reassurance and hope. But I only recently started really writing. And honestly, it’s hard to prioritize writing for myself when there is no instant gratification.

I hate that. I hate that I want instant gratification. But I think that’s the world we live in nowadays, and whether we’re willing to admit it or not, we all want that quick fix and the short answer and the immediate payoff.

I write for my clients, I send them content, I get paid. Simple as that. I send someone a text, they respond. I post something to social media, people like it within minutes. It’s quick and easy and straightforward.

But writing a book? That seems insane. I know people write books all the time, but for me, that seems a little crazy. It’s not like I have a publisher or a manuscript or even a main idea for a book. But I want to write one and get feedback and get published and sell it and help people. And I want that to happen right now.

That’s nuts. I’m nuts, haha.

I’ve been learning a lot about myself recently, and I’m discovering that I’m not very proactive. I know the importance of being proactive in my health, my relationships, my homemaking, my work, my relationship with Jesus, and so on. But I don’t always do what I’m supposed to do unless I have to. It’s when something is down to the wire or it becomes concerning or I’m worried about progress that I really buckle down. And when I do buckle down, I tend to have great results. I have a great work ethic, but unfortunately, that work ethic does not seem to apply to all areas of my life every time.

I remember taking a personality test years ago, and part of the results said something like I will absolutely get done what needs to be done, but it may not be 100% perfect, even though I’m kind of a perfectionist. That sometimes I focus more on completion than on quality. And I hate to admit that, but I have to say that it’s very true. A lot of my satisfaction comes from the completion of something rather than how well I did it.

I can’t let my book be that way. It needs to be perfect. It needs to be focused and poignant and well-written and purposeful. It has to be what I dream it can be and it has to be perfectly crafted with God’s wisdom interwoven so that it can effectively reach people who need it.

I used to think that I would write a book about my story and being a mom who strives to love Jesus and teach my children to serve Him, but I don’t want it to be just a memoir. I thought for a while that I would write about how to establish a firm foundation in Christ and how vital that was to navigating the storms of life. But my own foundation felt like it was crumbling for a while and even though I knew the steps to take to re-establish it, I struggled a great deal to do that. And I also felt like my book would be more for someone in crisis than someone at the start of their faith journey, so they don’t need a lesson on what they should have done, but instead would need something to do in the now. Maybe it should be about accepting the trials and finding joy in them. But Lord knows I’m terrible at that. Maybe it’ll be a journey of self-discovery as I attempt to teach others how to do that. Ha. That sounds like a trial in and of itself that I don’t want to willingly walk through.

I want direction. I want to have a goal and a purpose in my writing and I want to start working toward achieving that. I want to have patience yet be focused in order to walk in my calling and do what God has given me to do.